I'm sitting on my bed and writing on this blog. It feels like it has been a long time since I have sat on my bed and used my computer. It feels like it has been a long time since I have used my computer solely for the reason of entertainment and nothing important. Having said that, I still have tabs open with Biology notes so I am not technically the statement prior to this one is not completely true. I am really glad that I picked LiveJournal for this blog. I have tried blogger and such before and I know it sounds like an awfully weird thing to say - but I feel comfortable here. LJ was the first blogging site where I really started writing thoughts down and in the course of that, allowed myself to make some wonderful acquaintances and this is just where I feel I belong. There's another reason to this that I have just figured out. I don't know anyone on LiveJournal that I know in real life and that wasn't the case on my other blogs. I find it extremely and terribly difficult to write with the knowledge that someone I know will read it. It's a lot to do with my incomprehensible lack of ability to open up. I just can't, it is the utmost difficult thing for me to do. I know that a large number of people feel the same way when it comes to opening up, but it's funny how it works out. We are all scared of opening up and if we are all scared, then we should know how the other feels and just open up, right? But it's not as simple as that even though it could be and perhaps should be. However, that's not the pressing issue at the moment - I am not terribly discontent about my lack of ability to open up. I just need to be able to exhibit it in the form of writing for the time being.
eet. - marigoldenhues
10 May 2010 @ 08:07 pm